Natalie... UnCuT

Penny for your thoughts

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 02:27:52 GMT

So i think i might be done with everything and everyone.

I think its about time i move on from glenn
i think its about time I start caring more about numero uno.
i think its about time i stop feeling guilty about everything.
i think its about time people top worrying about everything in my life
i think its about time that i made some lifelong friends. not just atm ones
i think its about time that i do what i want.
i think its about time that i tell people how i feel and not worry about what they think
i think its about time i take pride in myself and get some self esteem.

yeah... i think its about time

Not dead

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 19:32:00 GMT

hey everyone that misses me! i miss you too! lol im not dead ive just been really busy lately.
ive been busy doin nothing really tho its actually kinda interesting to say.

so yes anything going on is not important.
sorry bout the lack. and if i dissapoint you lol

more later promisssse

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Im Very Dissapointed in You

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 17:51:45 GMT

first off i would like to say im dissapointed that i came back to almost nothing.
thanks guys. lol.

So my trip was AWESOME. heres how it went...

Thursday: We got to our hotel at 2:30 in the morning.

Friday: We woke up at 7 got ready then went to a breakfast buffet in our hotel until loading the busses and going to Epcot. i hung out with Glenn and our friend Andrew all day. we went on a million rides and went to all the different countries and stufff ate dinner ans then at the end we saw Illuminations. it was AMAZING accept this stupid lady and her family were standing right in front of me and i wanted to punch her in the face bcz she wouldnt move. we were there until 9:30.

Saturday: woke up at 6 went to the hard rock cafe at 7 ate a really terrible breakfast there. then loaded up and went to Island Of Adventures. (* its the new park at Universal *) we went on the Spiderman ride. and it was probably the coolest thing ever!!!! and other rdes and shows. it was not as fun as epcot but still sweet. i got my picture taken with spiderman, storm, captain america, and wolverine, the cat in the hat and Sam I Am. in suess landing.

Sunday: Woke up at 7 went to the hotel breakfast. then boarded to go to MGM Studios. me and Glenn hung out alone and we went on the Tower of Terror. omg. i was SO freakin scared my picture on the ride was amazing. and we went on the haunted mansion and Pirates of the carribean. it was pretty sweet and we saw Fantasmic which was this AWESOME laser light firework show with all the villians attacking mickeys dreams. they projected things on water!!!

Monday (* Parade Day *) we went to this breakfast thing at a ranch and had to eat outside and it was COOLLLLDDDD and then i threw up and was not feeling good at all. we went to the magic kingdom where we went on splash mountain and thunder mountain it was good. we had out parade at 2:30 and i died it was 80 degrees and in those band uniforms. omg.

Tuesday: we went back to the magic kingdom and went on buzz lightyear space mountain splash mountain and other stuff it was pretty good.

Wednesday: we packed up all out luggage and loaded it then went to the Animal kingdom. i went on the new ride called Expadition Everest. this was the COOLEST ride i went on the entire trip. it was amazing. i went on it twice. we also went on Its Tough To Be A Bug. i didnt like that so much. and then we went on this one called Dinosour. and it was AWESOME. it scared the shit out of me bcz all the sudden this HUMUNGOUS dinosour is right next to you and i screamed like no other lol.

So all and all thats basically it in a nuttshell. obviously im home safe and dissapointeed in the comment situation. but thanks to you that left me something to come back too. <3

Valentines Day

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 21:50:18 GMT

Its Valentines day. and i would say a happy one to you all but i dont celebrate it anymore.
its not that im a lonley sad little girl because i DO have a wonderful boyfriend. ( Glenn ) and
i love him yes indeed but Vday is a Hallmark Holliay that i refuse to take part in. its ridiculus.
its not made for everyone. only those who are a couple. and all those painfull years of being all
alone i looked forward to celebrating it for the first time with a boyfriend but now that i have that
opportunity i just dont want to. i just think about it and the whole idea is just stupid to me. Anyways.....

So I leave for Florida tomarrow night . I have to be at school by 5 we leave at 530 plane leaves at 7
we wont be at the hotel until like 1. ughghghghghg but anyways. yes i am TERRIFIED of this plane ride
and just to save the trouble (* Please excuse the CAPS *) PLEASE DO NOT COMMENT SAYING IT WILL BE
ALRIGHT AND THAT I HAVE NOTHING TO BE AFRAID OF. IVE HEARD IT ENOUGH AND I STILL THINK IM GOING
TO SHIT MY PANTS OK? IM SCARED AND TELLING ME ITS ALRIGHT ISNT GOING TO CHANGE THAT.

alright so now thats over with. im really depressed at the moment. my mom bought me a new baithing suit and a new top of a baithing suit. well i had to try them on and what i saw in the mirror was enough to loose my breakfast. none of you have seen me so i guess you cant say "oh your beautiful shut up LOL" which is good bcz im sick of hearing that. gah. its like. i realize that YOU may think that telling me im not horendusly ugly of ginormusly obease will make me feel better when truth is.. it doesnt. it does the opposite. so you shouldnt say that to me... but anywyas.

So i packed my suitcase all up. i still need to get my hairbrush from Glenns house and then ill be all done.
i think that me and Glenn and our parents are going to go out to dinner tonight.. woopie. i hope we go to Olive Garden.
i really want some salad and breadsticks.. mmm.. delicious.

well anyways. im not sure if im going to be able to post
anytime between now and when i leave. so hopefully this
will satisfy your needs to read my life. (Which i love <3)
and Special thanks to everyone who comments alot.
Your My Favorite =)

For Your information

((** I'll be gone from Tommarrow night ( Thursday night 2/15 ) until wednesday ( 2/21 ) **))

So thats about it. ill be around. Leave me love to come back tooo!!!!
ill make sure to give a detailed ( Not so much ) post about my trip
when i get home!!!

Board. Bored.

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 02:40:36 GMT

im super sick right now. and i just feel like ick. im super tired but cant sleep. i just feel mucho icky. im probably going to just wantch some Law & Order and go to sleep. im supposed to go to WinterBlast tomarrow in Detroit so hopefully i will feel alot better. i dunno. pray for me.

leave some love. anything. i dont care.
oh and a question. how do you make those things that people can click on and go to something extra. like a extra thing.
i dont know how and i thought maybe some of you would like to know what i look like and instead of making a HUGE post with a picture or two i would just make an extra thing. that is if anyone wants to know what i look like? i dont know lol. but im out.

Leave me something to read mmmmk.. ill return the favor =)

I'm Not His Mother... But.

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 02:42:27 GMT

ok so ive had the worst day ever.....

i havent slept in like 5 days because i keep having nightmares about my trip to Florida with the band next thursday.
im not going into details on them today bcz i just dont feel like writing that much tonight. (* if you really wanna know you can ask and ill write it i guess. *)
i have a humungus headache and i hope i can at leaste TRY to sleep it off.
We had 2 days off school. Then Glenn descided he didnt want to go to School yesterday because his throat hurt. and
i understood so i spent the school day alone.
he came today it was good.
and then as i am dropping him off tonight hes like i dont think im going to go to school tomarrow bcz my throat hurts.
im like wtf? youve only been for 1 day this whole week! and it just makes me mad for a couple reasons.

These being :
I could be throwing up and my parents STILL would make me go to school * Jealousy *
I will be forced to eat lunch alone walk to every class alone drive to school alone and just be alone. * Anger *
He is going to burry himself in school work and HW from missing and he isnt the type to overacheive so he wont make that stuff up and i dont want him getting bad grades like i did. bcz its just a pain in the ass in the future * Worry *

and Yes like the title i know im not his mother but still. i think he shoul at leaste muddle through the day. and then
if he doesnt want to hang out ater school then fine. but hes like. i need my sleep and i need to drink lots of tea.
im like bullshit you just dont want to go to school then again who does? but still even tho school is probably the WORST
thing in my life right now ive been trying really REALLY hard not to miss any because my classes are imposable to catch up
with if i miss things and the teachers are horrible to try to ask them what you missed is like getting teeth pulled out. ughghgjdsh

So im pissed and tired and cranky and emotional.
I'm not even on my period. GAH....

now im just gunnuh get some cold water and go lay down.
wish me luck for finishing out this school year. its being a bitch.

American Idol

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 02:54:32 GMT

So American Idol makes me happy and makes me very sad at the same time.

Happy.                                                                                            Sad.
People who think they can sing.                                               I love to sing. My mom told me that
its really funny.                                                                              i wouldnt make it. lol and bcz i get Jealous.

So im watching american idol and there is like 25 comments on my last entry. and when i noticed that
i got super excited lol. so i had a band concert today. it was lame. today was awfully boring and i didnt like it.
but after the concert i drank 5 glasses of punch then went to Carribou coffe with Glenn Dayna and Steven D's Boy.
it was actually really fun and i Really like steven and im SO happy for dayna. so thats about it for today.
so ill holler back later gaters. Peace and Much love <3

To all my friends.

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 02:12:04 GMT

so you all got to know a little about me that you wanted and you still can! but i have a few questions of my own.
so if you would kindly answer some general questions id love you forever mmmmmkkkkk

1) Name:
2) Age:
3) Gender:
4) One interesting thing about you:

Thats it.
school in the AM so im off to bed.
Later Gaters.

No School

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 03:21:47 GMT

So i didnt have to go to school today and i dont have to go tomarrow either.
the reason is because its too damn cold. and im serious. it was -25 this morning.
so to answer the questions (* thanks a billion for submitting =) *)

1) Do you like sushi>? (If so, what?)
Never Had it. dont think i would like it.
2) Superman, or Spiderman>?
Spiderman definitly
3) Cereal, or Toast>?
hmm. well i guess toast but only if theres peanut butter involved
4) School, or work>?
.Work I HATE school
5) Dream house location?

A Big house in Michigan. ( Close to family )

6) What do you do first when you wake up in the morning? Wish i was still asleep. then turn off my alarm then go to the bathroom
7) Shampoo first or last? First
8) Dogs or cats? Cats
9) Your most memorable moment when you were in HS (embarrasing/funny etc.) Hm. still in HS but so far i guess it would be when i slipped and fell in the middle of the hallway between classes bcz the floor was wet.
10) What turns you on in a guy? Eyes. and a hot smile lol

11) If you had to be stuck in a room with one of the most evil people in history to convince them not to commit their future evil crimes, who would it be? Adolf.

12) What is your ideal man? Someone who makes me laugh. knows when im upset and knows how to help. someone who is opinionated but not mean about it. hes gotta be fun funny and trusting. nice eyes and a great smile. chisled abs are always a plus. but mostly i just want to know that im his favorite no matter what.

13) Are you good with children? my mom had a daycare at our house for 14 yrs of my life. so i guess i could say that i am. not by choice tho. sometimes i get impatient.

14) Do you think a class is more interesting because of the teacher or the material? hm well my Pre-Calc class is a perfect mixture of both i love math and Mr. Brasch is Hilarious

15) If you could rename yourself anything, what would your new name be? hmmm Nikita ( Nick-Key-Tah ) i always thought that was so cool. lol

that was fun
but im off to bed to
Sleep in again.
thanks loves.
any more ?'s just ask i love em!

alrighty then.

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 17:17:23 GMT

So dad went on a rant just now. about me cleaning the house while he goes out.
what a shit head. mom comes home today. idk when tho. super bowl today. idk
what im going to be doing all i know is i want some fooooooood right now. im starvin.
so im going to go eat food and let you be satisfied with this. bcz im feelin lame. thank.

probably more later.
btw i was wondering if there is anything else you would like to know about me.
im giving you the opportunity to ask me 5 questions about anything in a comment.
i dont really care what they are just ask and i will answer 100% honest. i swear.
just give me some entertainment for this day of bitter cold nothingness. kthnks

pre-calc ACT bored.

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 16:01:47 GMT

im at school right now.
i feel sick to my stomach.
but i cant call my mom
because Glenn stayed home
so she will just think that i
want to come home because
he is at home. and yea its pretty
ridiculus and i hate it but its life.
its my life. its how it works. i go to
school and no matter how ill i am
i stay at school. and since Glenn is
at home that means that at lunch i will
be sittin by myself. and then go to the
library to read my book like a loser.

anyways. hall decorating is today but i think im going to skip it to go to basketball practice.
i need to go to that more anyways. so that means home for an hour eat dinner then leave
basketball will take all night so then im home to shower and go to bed. whoopdie doo.
days that i have basketball i cant hang out with people. so no Glenn for me at all today.

On a happy note though i hung out with Dayna and AJ yesterday.
it was a nicce change to the boring friendship scenery that is absent in my life.
we went to summerset and to michaels and then we went to AJs to tie-dye
im making Glenn a yellow shirt even though he is a sophmore and im sick
of people giving me shit for it. i have no junior friends so therefore i will sit
with Glenn.. well actually he will sit with me. on the back of his shirt im going
to put "Honorary Junior" and i think that will be funny. so whatever idc what ppl will say.
maybe if they were friends with me then i wouldnt have to rely on him for company...
( Note: Dayna and AJ are seniors. but they are true friends... wow. thats new for me )

well thats all for now. im off to eat lunch by myself. and probably update and check after school again. seeing how i have nothing else to do till basketball tonight... comments would really cheer me up today<3 i will return the favor

<h1> Thoughts?

why you no wright me?

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 23:10:50 GMT

basically i havent written here forever. so i thought i would just say that as of right now
life sucks. and idont want to have to deal with drama at school with people who read this.
so basically. school sucks parents suck everyting sucks. cept like 2 friends and the boy.
sorry for my lack of wrighting and commenting. hopefully more in the near future?<3

not so bad.

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 16:50:29 GMT

Its Christmas. and i got guitar hero 2 and a cordless guitar a bunch of clothes and such not bad.

Merry Christmas everyone!

At School

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 18:35:16 GMT

So yea right now im at school in spanish and its the easiest class i have full of the remidial students who dont know anything. i fineshed my page and now im bored and there is still 20 minuets left of class. i came in late today because im sick and yet i still had to fight my parents to let me stay home. i think im gunnuh go home and sleep for a while after school .. i have basketball tonight but i dotn know if im going to go or not. it depends on how im feeling. next hour sucks too because i fineshed my project in there also and so i just sit there the whole hour and do nothing. but i think i will go get my pre calc book and do my missing assignments and raise that grade up a lot. im gettin a little smigen of EC in precalc and chemistry so that should help a little bit. im hoping for at leaste a b- if not a B but who knows? so yea. then i think i should go to Mr wrobles class because i missed pre lab today and figure out how to do the write up.

tomarrow is the last day of school until break
THANKS BE TO GOD. i swear i dont know how
people make it through the school year.. its like
torture for me or something... but one more day.

My sister is coming home friday morning hopefully not too early because i want.. need to sleep. i cant wait for christmas i found my mom something pretty great to give her.. is it terrible that it was free.. and from Little Ceasers? no its not anything to do with food its a Steve Yizerman collectable ( you know.. the guy played for the red wings) i hope she will like it. Christmas kinda bites this year though because i didnt have any money to spend on the father and the sister so my mom is giving me presents to give to them.. ugh how sucky cheap is that? but yea i told Glenn that he will have to wait till after christmas and after he gets home from florida for some of his gifts but im giving him the video and poem thing probably on christmas eve. i hope he likes it. ill be so sad if he doesnt because i worked really really hard on it.

But im out because the bell is probably gunnuh ring...
Comment?

fixin it

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 17:57:33 GMT

Thanks guys im gunnuh talk to him about it. i felt better after just posting it.
i think we will be ok... we just need a little time apart. thats all.

Thanks n Much love

confusion

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 03:23:19 GMT

Today was an interesting day. it started off good by me sleeping in till later and my parents not bothering me. then i hung out wiht jen and got taco bell with her which was good times. we took bottles back and then she left to go to my uncles house to babysit. i told her i would come hang with her and stay the night there with her so i left at about quarter after 7.

On the way there i stopped to use the gas card Glenns mom gave to me and so i inevitable started thinking about Glenn which was nice for a bit but then i started thinking about all this stuff thats always in my head about our relationship and how we are more like friends then a couple.. and that bothers me. he never does anything nice for me and so i dont do anything for him and i just started getting upset.. and i mean i dont want to break up with him bcz that would crush him and i cant imagine my life without him and just writing this i want to cry. so im in my car listenin to a cd and Say goodbye by Chris brown comes on.. and if you never heard that song you wouldnt understand why i started bawling like a baby in my car listenin to it bcz at that moment i wasnt ready to be tied down to a relationship i mean im in high school and i am supposed to be able to fuck around with a bunch of guys (not like a hoe... lol) and not feel guilty about it and everyone just seems to be so happy with finding and hanging out with and getting calls from a bunch of guys and i want that. i dont want to feel tied down. so then after that song You Dont Bring Me Flowers Anymore came on.. and then again you need to listen to that song bcz it described my relationship perfectly..

A little sample:

You dont bring me flowers
You dont sing me love songs
You hardly talk to me anymore
When you come thru the door
At the end of the day

I remember when
You couldnt wait to love me
Used to hate to leave me
Now after lovin me late at night
When its good for you
And youre feelin alright
Well you just roll over
And turn out the light
And you dont bring me flowers anymore

It used to be so natural
To talk about forever
But used to bes dont count anymore
They just lay on the floor
til we sweep them away

And baby, I remember
All the things you taught me
I learned how to laugh
And I learned how to cry
Well I leared how to love
Even learned how to lie
Youd think I could learn
How to tell you goodbye
cause you dont bring me flowers anymore

so needless to say i was having a real hard time on the ride to my uncles house when who calls me? yea.. Glenn.. and i said that i would just have to call him back later... i dont know what to do.. im not satisfied with him and i dont want to sound like a bitch but i dont want to go on out with him when im miserable because hats not fair to him.. maybe we should just take a break... some time apart? i dont know...

HELP...

terrible. </3

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 20:26:15 GMT

Today was a horrible day. i got my results back from the Psat ( practice SAT) and i did HORRIBLE.. last year when i knew less i got almost 40 points higher.. wtf is up with that? so then everything came crashing down... cameron got a 208 so of course i was ridden with jealousy because people always assume that im an idiot because i like to say stupid things to sound funny.. so that sucked...

Then At Lunch...
so then im at lunch and of course Glenn (the boyfriend) is trying to make me feel better but all he can say is.. its just a test its just a picece of paper.. it doesnt matter.. but IT DOES MATTER.. to me anyways... so i got mad at him then i felt guilty and it was just bad.

Fourth Hour
Everyone started talking about how wonderful their lives were going.. and how they were meeting new boys and what not.. so for some reason i was mad at myself for having a so uneventful life that sucked and how me and my boyfriend didnt meet in any cute way we met on MYSPACE for god sakes... so yea. im out of shape i have no friends and my life just sucked. at that moment anyways..

Sixth hour
i fineshed my project and then watched it and what i saw just brought a smile to my face and brightened my day. i cant say what it was tho because its a suprise for someone that for some reason might read this but i dont know...? so yea...

Now
I dont feel good at all.. it might be because i didnt eat anything today... but im not sure.
its my moms birthday so im going out with her and some people for dinner.. but yea not till later
theres a hockey game tonight i MIGHT go to but i dont know.. and there is alwyas the OFF chance
i hang out with my cousin but who knows... i think im gunnuh go to Glenns now tho to play some guitar hero..

Comment <3

Guitar Hero

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 00:25:21 GMT

So today was a pretty decent day besides the fact that i dont feel good AT ALL. but i went to shcool anyways like i always do.
i went straight to the boyfreidns house after school and slept for an hour because im Drained from babysitting till midnight last night. then people came over and they are over and now we are playing Guitar Hero which is my FAVORITE game ever and im totally owning everyone. Im so happy i just got a million new friends thanks yall for adding... anyways.. im goin to olive garden tomarrow and im super excited. thats a good place. anyways.... for all you new friends if you gots AIM IM me at XxYourSoColdxX (I was a BIG breaking Benjamin fan when i made it). Thanks

Leave me some Lovee

the weekend

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 03:06:17 GMT

So.. my weekend was majorly boring. and i didnt do much.. lets start from the start shall weee..

Friday:
Friday was my cousin Jens birthday and also her partay. so me and my Boy glenn went to her house to party it up with the troy zillians. we were pretty much left out of the whole thing till the end when there was like 5 people left so it was basically a whatever but fun none the less... i spent the night at Jens house where her mom and friends decided to get drunk and party to with a massive cake fight in the kitchen.. we are talking cake on the ceiling here... but yea... eventually we went to bed sharing a twin size bed between her and my bodatious self at about 3:30 in the morning ... only for me to wake at 8 o clock on saturday.

Saturday:
So i wake up and its 8 o clock and im like.. aw hell no.. because i had a FREE... practice ACT test to go to at some weird school for the boater geniouses of Troy. so i called my dear mommykins to try to beg my way out which only ended up in a massacre of yelling and dissapointment in me.. thats how the day begins.. so running on no sleep i hop in the heep of a car and try to make my way out to this place. well needless to say i get lost and cant find the place which makes me late so i cant take the stupid thing. so noe my parents are fumingly angry at me and im all tears and sadness and boy is at his dads so i go to make my way home... well i get lost AGAIN.. and this time i drive around in circles until finally i figure out where the hell i am after an hour or so of driving.. i finally reach home an hour and a half later at about 10:30 where i then go sleep until 3 o clock.. then to make a long story short me and glenn proceed to do nothing for the rest of the night.

Sunday:
which happens to be today. i wake up at a decent hour of about nine and mosey around my house till 9:30 then i showered and got ready and went shopping with my grammy and my cousin for myself for christmas presents from grams. it wasnt half bad although grandma was harping on my clothes and shoes and pretty much everything about me.. but thats normal. i get home at about 3:20 and then i go on LJ and computer things for a couple hours.. then i went to Glenns house and watched some Law & Order... pretty much my favorite we eat some green lantern and thats pretty much it.

My weekend was pretty straight forward and not so exciting but in my opinion it was all in all a good time..
P.S... i made some new LJ friends... its Rad

Some Thoughts would be niceee

Well Hello There

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 01:57:21 GMT

Hey there Everyone. its my New LJ. its pretty sweet i know. i dont really have to much to say here. everyone that reads this probably knows me. and if you dont.. then you probably want to.. lol jk jk but seriously... anyways.. i guess i will tell you that i have the most incredible boyfriends in the entire world. and i love him to pieces... my friends are my everything. i love to laugh, so make me chuckle... my laugh constantly changes. i can tend to be an emo pumpkin but once i laugh its all good again. i hate broccoli and pretty much any vegitable known to mankind... i prefer my hot dogs either raw or with Chili.. my school is a penetentary, and i would still like to know what crime i commited... i hate my life but dont worry thats just an expression, i type LyKe ThIs bcz its just easier to type wrong.. im terrible at spelling im good at math i HATE CHEMISTRY. i dont like mean people.. bcz they suck.. and yes. i have a myspace. do you? comments Tickle me pink.. i like to be creative.. i make pictures for my friends comments and i love to give people presents that make them happy. i hate being alone. no matter what id rather have company.. currently im unemployed and poor. christmas is my favorite holiday besides my birthday which is 10 Days after and i absolutly adore halloween. i dont like the movie dosgeball and ive never seen anchorman i love the breakfast club and life isnt complete without a little dose of happy pooter. life wouldnt be the same if i didnt have everyone who is already apart of mine. im easy going and up for anything...